Another 24 hours

Another
24 hours
(Awake)
Pondering
The meanings
Of my life
Questioning
Myself
Making
All that knows me
Believing
I'm ok
But
I'm hidding
Crying
No
I'm happy
No
Awake
24 hours a day
Myself
I'm here
I'm here
But lost
Lost
In a world of
Confusion
I try to make it
An illusion
Close my eyes
Blood shot eyes
Open to
Sadness
Depression
I blink
Blink
All is the same
I can't make it
Go away
Please, please
Not another day
24 hour day
Staying awake
Praying
To take
God take me
Take me away
Please make it
Today...
I can't handle
Another day
24 hour day

Reason, Meaning

I pray for a
Reason, meaning
Just one would be
Very easing
Take away
All my pain
Make it simply
Pleasing
If light was in
The begining
Why now is
Darkness teasing?
The more I pray for
Reason, meaning
The more I get pain,
Not pleasing
I could scream out
Why me, but
No one around to
Help my easing
I try to
Get away, but
Haunting,
Taunting,
Beating,
I hear whispers
Only teasing
Left here now
Weak and wheezing...

Your

Hear your voice
It's my choice
Nothings the same
Vomit your name
Scatch out my eyes
Blood baptize
Bleeding your lies
Geezzz
Go away please
Leave me alone

I Don't Miss...

I don't miss sin risin' in the air
I don't miss any of the nightmeres
I don't miss the cold embrace
I don't miss feeling out of place
I don't miss the endless tears
I don't miss all the fears

I don't miss...

You

I'm all real,
And all surreal
My claws
Reach to reel
But my evil mind
Plays the deal
To pull them in,
As if they're within

Their innocence
I crave
They are
Virgins
To sin
I rant, I rave
They weep
Within

I thrist for
Their tears
I say things to make
Their heart chime
Then give them
Plenty of fears
For then I get drunk
On their whine

I'm not meek,
Feeling weak
I'm strong,
You know why
I'm a beast, I feast
On weakness
I fear not,
And they cry

I cannot
Put to rest
I've learned from
The best
Yeah, you know
It's true
I'm a
Female you

I Puke You

Everytime I hear your name
I have no one other to blame
I puke you

Everytime I hear your voice
I have no other choice
I puke you

Everytime I see you
I hold my breath till I turn blue
I puke you

Everytime I feel your touch
Right then I just can't give up
I puke you

Why can't you just understand,
That you ARE NOT my man

No matter what you say
No matter what you do
Simply, I'll NEVER love you!

I puke you!

I've been
Pushed around
Thrown
To the ground
Many times
I've cried
But I still have
My pride
My dignity
No one can take that
From me

No one

Not even you

Does He?

Does he
tell you things
that you
want to hear
Whisper each
softly
in your ear
Does he
hold you
lovingly
in his arms
Taking you
away from
the day's
little harms
Does he
softly caress
your cheek
Leaving you
feeling
blissfully weak

Does he say I love you

Just wondering 'cause
he says it to me too...

Help Me

Reality is more than a bore
Each day I die a little more
From the inside out
Despair is what it's all about

My body cold
From life's toll

My eyes blind
From my world behind

My body becomes weak
I seek the strength I need

I can't seem to break free
Of what's inside of me

Helpless
Hopeless
Lifeless

...Dead

Touch lips
With scarlet fingertips
Touch heart
With sweetness, turned tart

Someone

...Someone help me

Help me find
My sanity

See/Hear/Speak No Evil

I hurt because the things I see
And I no longer want my eyes to be

...Please God, blind me

Blind me from this world
Blind me from hate and all evil

I hurt because the things I hear
And I no longer want my ears

...Please God, make me deaf

Deaf from all the hatred heard
Deaf from each evil spoken word

And please God, take my tongue
And along with it remove my lungs

Because with each thing that hurts
I scream at the at of my lungs and curse

Please God, take all of these from me
I no longer want them as you can see

Bruised body
Bruised soul
Broken heart
Scattered
On the floor

Blood-shot eyes
Bleeding gums
Still exsist
Yet feeling numb

And I hate myself
For loving him
And I hate myself
For trusting him

My Brickened Den

Lost within my feelings
Crazed within my sense
Maze of my own emotions
Now to build a fence

Each wall will have no window
Nor will there be a door
I truly cannot handle this
I'll not take no more

Each wall will be of brick
Each brick will have a name
For all that has hurt me
Each layer will show the blame

For each time I'm deceived
For each time I'm hurt
This brick fence will build higher
Less then I'll feel like dirt

Never will anyone enter
Never to come in
Never will I ever leave...

My Brickened Den

But Hey...

Standing on
the edge
of a cliff
And my mind
starts
to drift
I think to myself
If only
I was strong
strong enough
I'd jump
to end it all

But hey...

Do you think I could fly?

How does it
feel
out there
in the cold
standing there
alone
with no one
to hold
silence
all around you
is the only
thing
you hear
and you
can not bear
not to hear
me whispering
in your ear
How does it
feel
to know
you're left
out
in the cold
with no one
to show you
your way
back home
no helping hand
to guide
your way
and no footsteps
to lead
the way
I do hope
though
you enjoy
your journey
and when you
find
your destiny
I do hope you
enjoy
your stay...

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